Monday, July 27, 2009

new house

im alone and pretend to be okay..
to be independent at this age of 19 is a BIG NO NO 2 me..*sigh
and to be independent is not as easy as i tought b4..
kene beli bantal sendiri,dynamo sendiri,softlan..semua sendiri..
baju basuh sendiri,mop rumah,masak mkn sorg2,bgn pagi sorg2..arghhh.
kalau dulu mama yg prepare everytng..tau2 je semua ada depan mata..
mama buat list brg2 nak beli and everything complete..
semua yg mama buat slma ni kene buat sendiri..manage everything sendiri..
mama..adik nak kecik mcm dlu..mama siapkan everything utk adik :'(
adik kecik2 mama teman adik g skola tadika..mama tgu adik kat kantin dgn mknan dah ada ats meja..nasi lemak and donut..lps adik mkn mama tgu smpy adik msk clz then mama snyp2 balik..
adik sekolah rendah mama buatkan kerja skola adik..
mlm2 mama yg buatkn kerja adik...adik tkt sbb kene hntr esk..tp adik tido..heee
mama support adik apa yg adik nak buat..
adik menari,menyanyi,choral speaking ,fashion show.adik igt lg wk2 fashion show mama sewa kan baju tradisional srwk.. ..semua event mama dtg bg support eventho papa x dtg sbb papa kerja..ambil report card pun mama since adik standard 1 sampai la adik form 5..mama..mama..:'(
adik masuk uniten mama nangis ari2..mama tido dgn adik seminggu b4 adik msk uniten..
mama hntr adik kat uniten then mama ngs non stop..2 3 ari lps 2 mama dtg tgk adik ..
adik igt lg mama ckp mama nak jaga adik kat muadzam..mama nak pindah muadzam..
almost 19 thn adik x prnh jauh dgn mama...everyweek adik balik mlk dr muadzam for 1 year..weekends je beli tcket blk mlk..wk2 2 la kene bahan dgn kwn2 kat uniten kan..hee
and now..im here in kl..alone..manage everything by myself..:'(
arghhh xleh bayangkan hidup tanpa mama..
I'll make it, I'll manage to get thru this on my own sooner.
Insya'Allah
I've promised myself to learn to become an independent girl..

btw,im working on it..into a better person...
but i'm already happy enuf..
N is the man i love..And he's too good to be true in my eyes.
alhamdulillah,i ave my family and friends will be there fo me when i feel down..
thank you,family..thank you,friends..
i love you

280709..new house..grad successfully frm academy fo 65 days..
You test my strength.
From crawling in pain, I stood up and rise again with a big proud smile on my face.
I've been thru alot.
And so I believe I've learnt alot too..to be a strong girl...ezza..
Syukur Alhamdulillah...

By the way..
Yah I do miss melaka a lot..
Not the place, but the people.
My friends in muadzam and ex-schoolmates!
I been calling them and we cried together you know!
We're missing each other a lot!
huwaaaaa..sedihh :'(

pray for me,ppl..
Bismilahirahmanirahim

6 comments:

  1. reali touch..
    ezza gud girl..
    ur mama will proud of u!

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  2. congrats ezza on ur grad.
    wish u all the best in wateva u do.
    :)

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  3. ezza...
    i wish u all the best in your career...
    your mother will proud of u...
    GO GIRL!!!
    I KNOW YOU CAN!

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  4. aww babe,
    this entry really makes the tears run down my cheek.
    i miss my mom too ;(

    and ouh ezza dear,
    all the best in life okayh!
    u manage to go through the test,
    congrats!
    and you sure will success in you career :)
    ezza kuat! yeay yeay! ;)

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  5. all the best ezza =) tadahal lah. hehe

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  6. sayang, good luck in whatever you do. kak ryn datang tidur rumah ezza nanti okay? asyik firas je jumpa ezza, kak ryn pun nak jumpa jugak kan. hehe mwahx!

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